I'm here

submerged in a blanket of shadow with the one contrast striking my pours 

Take Heed

In this time all I ask is for you to listen.  Try to picture the rhythm of which I speak and the tone that I am trying to get across.
Life has the voyage and the truth.  Life has the choice for agency and thats why we are here.  We chose for this mortal existence.
the steps in life are there to walk on.. to follow and to embark onto.  We try to tread the steps and we try to fall were our foot lands but sometimes the nature inside of us chooses a different course.  I am here to tell you the steps to follow if you want to remain in the state, the state of mind the state of the world.  first.  you must learn that we are in the beautiful place to enjoy it.  We are not here to sit in worries and whim in despair.  I say unto you that life is great so drop the act and cut the emotion of pain because we are here to enjoy.  to have fun.   Second.  this life is not just for you.  I want you to go and grab the next persons shoulders you see and embrace them into a hug.  fill others with warmth.  your new goal that will remain forever is to make others happy as well as your self.  this doesn't mean that you can just drop life like a role playing hippy and ditch the jobs.  Your still a member of this society and you need to contribute to what you know is right.  don't be some free loader that sits on the pipe with the smoke bellowing out of your lungs and the streams of licker pouring from your crease between your lips.  Things like those are walls.  They are there so that you cant see past them and if you don't say no and get over them the first time then your trapped for good and the only way to get up and over is going to be the sharp path of stones launching into you while with every try you take the wall gains a rapidly in height and size.  Third.   Find love.  I cannot wait for the day that i can kneel at an alter and express my love to a spouse.  If you can find love with  someone then you have success in life because if you made the right choice then you can both get each other through thick and thin, don't ride on the thin ice waiting for the cracks to come to you and for you to drown.  Make yourself happy by making someone else happier.  Fourth share your knowledge with others.  You have a brain, great now use it to help the man or woman next to you.  We all go into life with cold feet and get nourished up in different homes with different rules and different experiences.  our experiences create who we are and what we can do. If you can teach one another about your perspective then new ideas can flow and build upon others.  The technology of the modern day wasn't originally thought up and did not come from scratch.  It came from a previous idea that someone else was able to build on and then you know what... you just might have the next big commodity for us.  Fifth is reflect.  Like an image in a still glass pond you see the sky and when you stand over it, are you pleased with what you see?  Can you honestly look back on your life and say wow.  Wow I have had a good, not good but great life and along the way I did a lot for society.  Are you pleased with who you are, what you did, and how you got there?  If so then awesome but the truth is we all have regrets but you know what hey thats part of life.  I regret what I told a girl last week.  I regret a lot but then about a year ago I said to myself... hey as long as life is in gear and you can keep the crank moving with a smile and help a few people along the way then that makes up for it.  live and listen, life is here for you.

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CREATIVITY IS NOT A THING BUT A PLACE IN YOUR MIND WHERE YOU TRY TO THINK AND THEN THE ONLY THOUGHTS YOU GET IS WHEN YOUR THOUGHTS ARE DONE.  DONT YOU THINK THAT THE WORLD WOULD BE MORE INTERESTING IF THE GRASS GREW ON THE NORTH AND THE SOUTH WAS JUST HEMISPHER ON THE SKUULL OF THE UNIVERSE AND MARS WAS THE NAVAL PASSAGE WAY.   the first time that i decided that i was creative was the time that i wrote.  i wrote about lies.  lies are about as creative as it can get.  a lie is a spure of thought moment when the brain and the mouth connect with a ball of passion in the center.  you thought up a lie off the top of your head you didnt prepare or determine what yo would say you would just try to do it without the effort.  listening to music is like the heroin for my thoughts it sends them on the jitters and sometimes i my hands start to shake

my hand shakes and creates a flow,  a stroke is actually a better discription of what actually happens.  i am an artist i try to use my abilities to express my thought but in all reality the greatest artist in the world could not retain my thoughts.       most men think of things as a dull subject and they focus on the moment and where there going to be.   the woman have there things to worry about twenty four six.   not seven but six.  the seventh day is sunday and that is gods day.  if you dare to take from your creater and waste your time in thought instead of moment of love then just fall to you knees and bring him into the conversaton of your mind.   let him determine what to do and let him try to help.   sorry for the off subject rant of raven. 
back to the subject of art.   what is art.  in the mental dictionary of my thoughts it reads that art is the ability to take a stand.  art is in any form.  right now i am just sitting bobbin in my seat listening to franz ferdinand and if i were to play the drums on the keyboard it would look like this..........


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now that i have bashed my fingers into the keyboard people are starting to look but thats okay!  i want to be noticed.  i want to stand out and i want people to look at me.  use the pupil hole in the center of your eye to focus and focus close when i say.....
y.  y . y  .  y    . y     .          why?

stolen from DESERET

News killed the night and blamed the day.  with power, people storm in threats and barely hit anything.

Spend the beginning of his love in the earnest campaign

the pain of the world is there for the taking

Pain in life comes from just living.  There is always something to get you down if you let it and a lot of the time you have to because thats just the only way to cope with yourself.  People are my primary source of pain. You can attempt to hurt me in any physical matter but the truth is, is that it will do nothing.   The physical abuse will leave a mark but marks are temporary and when you emotionally tamper with my thoughts i may as well have killed myself.  I cant sit around and not worry because i worry about the worries.  I know that I am suppose to be able to withstand all the evils of the provocative world but the truth is that life arouses uncomfortable thoughts and when people play with them as if it is a game of charades that only leaves an open end for guessing.   You kept me guessing and then I decided to think.  The biggest mistake I ever made was to think to use my imagination to create.   I am gifted with thoughts.  They tell me things and i tell myself things and the circuits of brain waves flow in and out of the surreal capasity of my skull.  You tried to ask for my heart back.  You cheated you lied you did it all in front of my face.   I sat in the row behind with the cold leather seats and i watched.  I watched for a second and then a minute and then I gave up on you.   Life is unbearable when the person your trying to go through life with is with someone else.  So i raise my chalice to you and say have fun with your night but when it is over don't come back.  I know that you will and I will want you back but when x and y = pain and the x is life then the only solution to equal the pain is you.

words in pairs of one

warmth. body. heat. close. woman. hands. holding. affection.  passions.  lust.  obsession. addiction.  heroin.  friends.  down.  pits.  trust.  nobody.  life.  secrets.  bottled.  drunk.  past.  unguided.  tried.  lived. sorrow.  listen. hear. beautiful.  sounds. melodies.  tones.  raised.  bar.  expectations. stress. life's.  meditate.  long.  far. distance. yonder. yodeler.  vibration. phones.  contact.  space.  flies.  worlds.  watching. modern.  abstract.  thoughts.  paint.  creativity.  imagine.  infant.  child. pubescent.  adult. elderly.  wise.  advise.  listen.  wind.  kites. grandpa.  grandma.  four.  missions. life. love. cute.  fashioned.  steel.  wheel.  shoulder.  lay.  soft. depth. deep. down. you.

REMEMBER

The time that the world was the youth and the youth filled the universe.  I remember when creativity was not something thought up but just something that i did.  I remember the days when I could sit home alone and not have to worry about locking them every time I went out.  I remember strolling down the street in my patagonia purple fleece jacket.  I remember when I could fish without thought and walk without pondering, just enjoying every frame of life as it went by.  I remember catching and watching tadpoles grow and only 8 of the 12 survived.  I remember when survival was a wish in a prayer when i was lost.  I remember understanding the wrongs i did and debating weather to come back.  I remember when "On the house" was still a friendly gesture often to be used.  I remember the man who use to place m&ms on the lid of my cup of hot coco.  i remember the time I thought I could race across the street and waking up 40 feet from where i stood.  I remember the bolt they plunged through my femur and the system of weights to stretch me how they thought i needed to be.  I remember when stress was never even a though.  I remember when they told me I could go back on the slopes.  I remember breaking my leg on the 1st run.  I remember sharing an avocado with my grandpa sitting on a freezer in the back of a restaurant.  I remember when common courtesy was a legit thing, when manners applied, and minds and gutters had no relation.  I remember the time I set my neck on fire.  I remember the 1st hernia, I also remember the 2nd.  I remember the 1st time drugs were in my reach and I said no.  I remember my favorite person,  my great grandpa.  I remember when I was on my way to visit him and on my way he went on his way out of mortal life.  I remember the tears that created the bath of loss in my mind.  I remember the obituary hanging in my room because it is still there. I remember my 1st real conversation with God.  I remember being on my bed side talking for hours.  I remember what I asked and I remember what he said.  I remember the plan of happiness.  His warm arms surrounded me like an electric blanket filling my skin with warmth.  I remember the new type of warmth, when it fills my heart and inside as well,  I will never forget the warmth of my Heavenly Father.  I remember the time he helped when i felt like life was an over rated thing.  I remember the rod of Iron as it pulled me into the correct direction.  I remember the time like the time remembers the day and the day remembers every step that is taken on the sun heated soil of the land. I remember and I will never forget.